Friday, February 9, 2007
Received an sms from my friend last night. She told me her grandma left her... upon 'hearing' this I was stunned for a few seconds. I knew her grandma is not in a good state and was frequently in and out of the hospital a couple of times. A few times I went over to her place her grandma was always not home cos she was admited again. However I did not know that her condition is so bad though friend told me the doctor asked them to be prepared. Her grandma was a very strong woman, she had persevered on for a very long time. Perhaps wanted to fulfil her wish to see friend get married. Everytime I see her she does not look sick to me, she looks OK to me. I talked to friend's grandpa 2 weeks ago and I still thought her condition is stable. That is not getting better but at least will not get worse. Once you are old you can't expect things to turn to the better but just hope that it will remain as it is.
Yesterday morning she was suddenly admitted to the hospital, in the evening she left... she left silently without saying anything nor informing anyone. Leaving her wish unfulfilled...
Life is really unpredictable... someone can be so healthy and strong but the next moment you know he's dead. Yes, I thought of the past few incidents where healthy men just died either in their sleep or due to some other unknown reason.
I understand how my friend felt right now, she loves her grandma alot and is very close to her. I understand how she feels because my grandma's condition is no better. She was once admitted to the hospital for about a month or so and at that time I am really so afraid of losing her. At last she pulled through but 2 weeks ago she was admitted again due to water in the lungs. The doctor told my family to be prepared as 3 of her blood vessels are blocked. She may go anytime... that is if the vessel 'explode'. I felt a gush of strange feelings when my mom told me this. Then a couple of days later I had a dream... a very frightening dream which woke me up from sleep and almost in tears. Luckily friend stayed over at my place and she was sleeping beside me so I was not that afraid... I told her wad I dreamt the next day and tears welled up in my eyes... but I controlled myself telling myself it was just a dream.
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