This picture was taken at the tea reception after the Achievers' Function cum Farewell Assembly. I look so auntie! *ScReAm*

The past few days were very tiring for me. I get exhausted and tired easily. When I reach home after school I just don't wish to do anything but rot down there and do nothing. Its not unusual for me to do that but I just don't like it. I do not want to be like that and I do not wish too. Just plain lazy maybe? But I just do not have the mood to do things. I feel kinda depressed again...especially when the night comes. Perhaps I'm suffering from Holiday Jag or perhaps I'm just overly stress for the coming exams...Perhaps Perhaps Perhaps~

Bcos of this I always wish that he can be by my side but this is only what I wish for. He's not here whenever I need him. Perhaps I'm too dependent on him. There are times when I wanna share my problems or have a heart to heart talk with him, he is always not available or the timing is always not right or my mood has not come. He wants me to be more understanding, understand his situation and staff lidat but did he ever try to understand me? I cannot always be that understanding too, you know? I understand you, but do you ever try to understand me, my feelings, my needs? I know he is trying his very best to make me feel better but I just dun feel it. I do not want to stress things too much and many times I just swallow everything down quietly...but there are times when I cannot take it and will sms my feelings. But end up I was never able to get a reply a few moments after my sms was sent out. Worse of all I do not even get a reply at all. Bcos his phone was switched off immediately after we hung up the phone, immediately after he sms me that he was going to sleep. Men are indeed from Mars & Women are from Venus. We should always know our differences and communicate in each others languages but at times Venusians just do not understand the Marsians and vice versa. It cannot be help. Dr Upset Cr Happy

I was not in a good mood last sunday...and while I was lying on his bed and thinking some staff through, I saw the sky outside the windows. It made me feel much much better, I'm not a very nature kinda person but I like to look at nature: the sky, sea, clouds, rainbow etc. They may not be able to cheer me up, but I'll feel much much better. I'll feel more relieved and my thoughts will just come to light.